My Addiction

Dropping it is hard
But you have to do it,
Let go of the satisfaction you get from it,
Let go of the ecstasy,
Ignore the intense feeling of pleasure,
you derive from it.

That's what I tell myself daily,
Keep fighting,
Don't give up,
But still, I can't ignore it
I've tasted it I can't go back
I didn't know what I was getting into,
Didn't  know that once you get a whiff
You are stuck.

They say there is hope
But I can't see it,
Is it there, I can't find it,
Why am i the only one blind to this?
Why am i the only one who can't sense it?
Maybe it's the whiff.

AHH! the whiff, I love it
 got me, I'm stuck, I'm blocked.
And I can't control it, I hate this,
The guilt inside tearing me up.
AHH! the price you pay for the whiff,
But when you have the whiff
It isn't there, it's like it does not exist
Cos all your senses are dead, or are they?
Maybe they are being used for the pleasure.

What to do? I don't know!
I feel its hopeless Fighting the whiff
Its got me, I'm stuck, I'm blocked.
Lord I look to you,
They say you save,
Come and save me,
Come and free me,
Cos the whiff, its got me,
I'm held in bondage by it,
Or Maybe I'm the one who tied myself to it
And now, I'm stuck, its got me, I'm blocked
And I can't control it.

Please lord, come and save me,
Save me from the whiff,
Make sure I'm stuck to you,
Make sure you've got me,
Cos if the opportunity arises,
I might go right back to the whiff,
AHH! The whiff.

Writing from the soul...